(PLAY RUSSIAN ROULLETTE AS WE KISS) the sounds [17 Sep 2004|09:34pm] i'm listening to the sounds right now, in two songs its gonna switch to the new senses fail cd (!!!) uh but i'm not doing anything.. at all, i got chinese mm that was yummy, but mr. saye is a dick, he yelled at me for being late and made me get a pass so all together i was late by like 15-20 mins.. hmm nice guy there.. uh yea, but kyle came today that was awesome, and the noodle kugel my mommy made for german was really good, and i got candy in ap euro... and uh i failed all the tests i took today so thats not so good, i cleaned my room and fixed my dresser today. my daddy just left :/ and my mom just got home double :/... and we are the S-O-U-N-D-S... yea their good... i'm bored... and stressed and sick. and i think saw andrew afterschool, and uh he isn't bad looking at all... and i don't think i am good enough... i hate how hard i am on myself... i guess i'm just nervous, its been a long time since i had "interaction" with a guy and that guy broke my heart.... and all of the guys i've liked since haven't liked me...and i'm sure that is gonna happen here, its just that i don't know.. i am too impatient to wait and see what is gonna happen... like i'm too shy or whatever to ask andrew to hang out... god i hate myself.. i'm silly/stupid/scared

(PLAY RUSSIAN ROULLETTE AS WE KISS) andrew [16 Sep 2004|05:34pm] so i was talking with theresa and john today about kyle was coming to lp, and i asked them if they had met andrew, which theresa kept getting confused with ian (who i know because he wears a double 0 in girls pants) but then they could only think of one guy-- who has peircings i think, his eyebrow and lip (is that not hot!! i'm like yippee) i don't know if he does.. i hope he does

(PLAY RUSSIAN ROULLETTE AS WE KISS) raindrops on roses [16 Sep 2004|03:14pm] so this morning i did good, didn't fall or anything, and when i got there, i saw kalli, and she told me about how she told delila (matts girlfriend) that chant likes matt,and how chantel got pissed, and then i saw ellen and lauren, but then chant was walking up so we walked away, keala saw me and jumped on me (because kyle is coming to lp!!) then grant was sitting with marcus and kira by their lockers, and i talked to both kira and marcus but not grant, which is ok, because i'm thinking i'm not liking him anymore. bla bla bla, nothing really great happened the rest of the day, o jess got the picture of me and the rose chris gave kayla, well she developed that, and i actually liked it, ooooo i got a donut in german *highlight of my day* it was good, i want one so badly now, i have since. eh i have two really big tests tomorrow-- biology, and german. then i have a huge ap euro one on monday, i toke one for english today, and i got my grade back on the algebra 2 test i took today... i got a 97 i was surprised. o yea, last night, i was babysitting this FIVE year old, and he said that he was going to stab himself in the heart with a knife. then i had to be his counselor lol... the kids at school make fun of him and don't believe him when he tells him stuff that really happened. o but i have to go find a german recipe-- i bring in food tomorrow, so i'll write later

(PLAY RUSSIAN ROULLETTE AS WE KISS) what i want in a guy [14 Sep 2004|07:04pm] i want someone who i'm comfortable around, who, i don't have a problem trusting, someone who doesn't drink, who doesn't do drugs, and won't push me further than i want to go, i want someone who treats me like he cares, because he does in fact care, i want someone who isn't afraid to let everyone know he cares for me, i want someone who will stop doing drugs or drinking for me, i want someone who likes me for me i want someone who shares my opinions, i want someone who isn't against gay marriages, i want someone who if we disagree, won't make me feel like shit, and won't put my opinion down, i want someone who i can cry to without worrying what they will think, i want someone who will comfort me when i need it the most, i need someone who will comfort me no matter what, i would like them to understand, but if they don't, he should still comfort me

(PLAY RUSSIAN ROULLETTE AS WE KISS) today [14 Sep 2004|04:06pm] yea, so today was, ok, i suppose. i went to school as normal, when i was getting off the bus i lost my shoe lol and to make things even worse, when i was going upstairs to my locker, i fell up the stairs.... in a skirt!! haha and then this really hot kid made sure i was ok, i was like uh i uh.. he was so hot! then last night i was talking to grant, and i told him just to forget about me liking him since things had gotten all weird and he had a girlfriend... and he was like what, you don't like me anymore? and i said i do, its just silly, so i'm gonna forget about it... but i can't because i like him and he is hot, and then i was talking to kyle about it and he said that things had prby gotten weird because grant liked me.. but he had a girlfriend so thats why things were all weird... but i don't know, i don't really see that being true.

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